I'm not sure I can describe how I've been feeling lately. Happiness, certainly. A few moments of peace. A big dose of uncertainty. Times of feeling completely lost, and other times of feeling like I know exactly where I'm headed. Basically, life for me lately has been a rollercoaster on steroids.
I never thought I'd be in the place I'm at right now. Last year, being with YWAM, was one of the biggest adventures of my life so far. I felt like I had found the call on my life in missions, and I wasn't looking back. And yet I look at myself now, working a minimum-wage restaurant job I swore I'd never go back to and with no plans for mission work falling in place like I thought they would, and it makes me want to scream. I feel stuck with no way out. I have a lot of questions, but I haven't been getting any answers. I'm doing my best to keep going on faith, it's just hard feeling tossed on to the sidelines after being in the thick of the fight. I'll just have to wait and see what happens.
God Bless! <3
